[jdubu2]

Thanks for all your support, this is the 2nd hardest thing I have been through. losing my son, not quite a year ago was the worst day of my life, nothing will compare, but it has given me strength to fight these SOBs until I am forced out on the streets! my son was just 26 he had no drug or alcohol problems, he could not stand the way people treated each other, he used to tell me "mom it literally tears me up inside" I would just tell him to do what he could by helping those he could.... it was too much and I did not see it coming at all! my husband and he worked together in the mountains of California so they were gone all week, I talked to them everyday.... Thursday Marcus stayed at the cabin and he told his dad maybe after lunch he would feel better, my husband went to check on him and he had shot himself..... this has devastated our family more than anyone could know, losing the only memories we have of him here.... anyway I am sorry for all the info, It s just really on my mind. my husband has not been the same man I married and I don't know that he will ever be.