Dear Daniel,
You make absolute perfect sense. You were on path at some point in your life you took a good hard look in the mirror didn't like the part most people ever see, decided to step up, learned lessons for who you were then, took responsibility for that, made changes and in helping now or however long you have taken a different road it is a form of healing. Giving so many us gifts from your time, knowledge and education I sincerely hope there is no guilt left from a past you changed. Please forgive me if I am out of line or talking out my well I'm sure you know what
We all have a past, made bad choices, but when we learn from them after a hard road ultimately you like what you see in the mirror. Please believe this comes from my heart after my journey in life. Let me start by saying I am not sorry for my past. It made me who I am today. I grew up in an unspeakable childhood with my Mother clueless to what went on behind closed doors. In my early years has an adult I was reacting to that so in all my bad behavior I had a hidden place to blame or worse faking to others how I really felt about myself. I hated seeing myself in the mirror. The one thing that motivated me to change was my three children. I had to quit blaming my past and take full responsibility for the adult wife, mother and friend to those I loved. My goal in life became to raise them with my prayers, unconditional love, laughter and even in discipline it was for raising them for their lessons in life knowing respect, right from wrong and their choices had their own consequences to learn from. The only ***gage I ever wanted for them to leave my home with would be in a suitcase. Two of my children still live at home. They are not perfect nor am I, but my healing came from seeing the lessons they will continue to grow in had a decent foundation for their start in life. One major factor that comes into play now is my home that carried an emotional journey to why I am here now and if need be let it go. I was raising my children on my parents property in a separate house for 20 years (the bad people had moved or died) taking care of my Dad and Grandmother while blessed to afford being a full time soccer Mom. A family member (step brother) I had no idea was affected by our childhood came after my daughters. I thank God everyday they were never touched, but their brush of what could have happened had I not took it all the way would have been on me. I made sure this was not a secret to my family and police in my fight to protect them which lead me to packing my family and moving to this house. It was in a way another healing for me. To tell you the truth that part of my life I at look now has the most important choices I will ever make while teaching them this is a reality in some families, but they were worth protecting no matter what. I have been truly blessed to be a part of other children's and adults that I have helped reach the other side of this. I am the first to admit I need guidance with sound advice from those blessed with being book smart. I understand it's time to let go of what this house represents to my heart to get the right perspective to move forward. Getting there is not coming easy for me to accept. Having found this place to receive help with understanding to start or finish another chapter in my families life means the world to me for reading from so many that participate here if for no other reason than simple human caring and kindness for one another not wanting anything more in return that to help those in need. Hello Daniel!! The appreciation and blessing from this I have asked God to pay it forward with a simple heartfelt thank you from me. For those reading this I am very sorry for my honestly in admitting a deeper emotional side to my fight regarding my home. What I wish for all of us facing this is the power the lenders and investors have over us they step back from the all mighty dollar to realize it's not always about numbers it about the people, the families, the children living in homes with parents trying to do the best they can under insurmountable stress levels doing all they can to hold it together at this time of our lives. If I have offended anyone or got way off tract by sharing this PLEASE forgive me. Take care of you too Daniel, Catherine