[jennifer]

Words can not describe the emotion this article created.
All of us here know the gamete of feelings caused from almost or even loosing ones home can cause. The stress of everyday living add on top the uncertainty of today's economy mix in a mortgage that can not be met, before long the healthiest person starts having problems.
I got a mod. It is only a temporary fix. Taxes and insurance cost of living is going up quickly. My pay is not going to be able to keep up. Lost my job today no fault of my own just the nature of my business.
I personally fee like the biggest looser, Still unable to say anything to my family and friends.
I am the go to mom. From babysitting ,taking care of grandma,, Easter bunny, surprise birthday parties. There is a problem I am the one to fix it. Now I make excuses as to why I can not do this things anymore. But the truth is I don't want my family to know how stupid I was. Every dollar has to go to the house note. With in the next year I am going to have to tell my kids I lost their family home. The shame and humiliation feelings of extreme worthlessness. You just get the point you just want all the pain and worry the embarrassment to stop. The stigma to go away.
I am normally the happiest person you want to know a bit manic at times but totally fun!!! Until now.........
Thanks Moe Cat Andrew Professor Coach and everybody. It takes all of us to keep all of us going. If only Raymond and Deanna had us had this forum we could have helped.
We are a strong community in ourselves we are here for one another. There is no place like this anywhere.
Thank God it is here
jennifer